Thursday, March 18, 2010
Out of Words
Today specifcally I'm finally out of words I have no way to describe how I'm feeling but right now I demand change. I'm sick of putting up with stupid things that can defiently be changed. I don't do anything because the way I see it, it's not my fight when it gets all up in my face then it's my problem but otherwise I try to push it aside. I've climbed over the rock but obviously I'm still helping some people up. It's a steep hill I'll give you that but with a little help from your friends and a blast of unstoppable courage it can be done. I know some people have it harder than others and when it becomes personal to me I fight back. And if I fall once and a while I don't cry and beg people to pull me up. I jump to my feet ready for anything else that hits me. My life defiently hasn't been perfect or the best. Do I regret things I did or didn't do? Of course I do but would I want to go back in time and change them? I would actually love to but then chances are I wouldn't be where I am today. Unlike some people I love my life I wouldn't change it for anything. I worked hard to get where I'm at to earn the respect I get from others. You can't just expect everybody has to like you for who you are because that my friend is VERY untrue. I earned everything I have by respecting and being nice to even the people I hate so much I might rip their head's off some day. I never cryed and whined begging for attention that I often didn't want. I like to talk and I'm outgoing but I feel more comfortable around some people than others. If I really needed to could I have a civiled conversation with someone I didn't feel comfortable with? Of course I'm open to whatever life throws at me and I take it as it comes. I like the attention I get on the stage singing or acting because that's what I love to do. Doing what I love is important to me and keeping sticking to my commitments and values is also important to me. All I want is for people to want this much needed change as much as I do and want to enough to actually do something. I know sometimes it can be hard but would you rather get lost in the woods and stay lost or call for help so you can go home. Admitting things about anything isn't a sign of weakness it's a sign of strength showing your willing to do what's needed to be done at any cost. Unfortunately things don't always work out as you or I plan but what's important to know is you have to be willing to mess everything up in order to make everything better.