Wednesday, May 11, 2011
All day I've had my favorite song stuck in my head and I'm slightly annoyed by it. But I can't stop thinking about what i means to me. And who it means to me. By the way the song is Save Your Heart by Mayday Parade and in case you haven't heard it I'll put it up on my youtube bar. Anyways it's an amazing song and who it made me think of surprised me a lot. I mean I always knew that deep down I had some feelings for him but I never thought this song of such meaning would make me think of him. Would make the feelings come up, from the seep down. The whole thing I just can't stop thinking about. Yes I'm still young so no I don't know who really is the one and I kinda want to stay young for a while. But that is kinf of what the song is about just so you know. Either way I now find myself emotionally attached to this kid that I want nothing to do with. All day I've been in an undetected romatically emotional mood. It wasn;t extremely hard core, so it's extremely curable so it can be cured within a couple days time. But still you always wonder, why your heart came up with that as a reference. Why it picked him.
Have you ever had to restart in a new place, you knew nobody. Your chances of surviving were well 1 out of 99. Very slim. The people who go into situations with this mindset are going to have that outcome. I mean my word isn't law so it isn't guranteed but go into anything with a positive attitude and you'll at least get close to winning. Not everybody is good at making new friends, this is true. But even I once thought that I was bad at it, but now that I come to realize it, making friends is easy, what makes it hard is being nervous or forgetting we have a voice and we forget who we really and truly are. When your in a new place it's no lie to say it's easier to try to fit in with everybody else, then just be yourself. But the way I see it people you respect you more when you're you, a real person. But then again in high school there is so real respect. I wish there was. Respect is such an important part of a relationship between friends or between anybody. It doesn't matter everybody should respect each other. That's what new beginnings are about, a clean slate, nobody knows you, nobody knows what you're known for. You could be anything you wanted to be. We don't get chances like these often and some of us never will.