Caring Comes from the Heart

Caring is defiently more intimate than some people think it to be. So you could basically call caring love. When you care about someone your willing to do anything for them even risk your own life for them. I care about many people my friends and my family. My famous pharse is you have to love someone enough to let them go. If any of my friends died I'd be crying for a days and I'd miss a week of school (breaking my perfect attendence). They're my life, my inspiration and my will to keep going. When you care about someone you feel guitly when you hurt (emotinally) them. You suck it up and apologize no matter how hard that is for you to do.You can't stand the idea of them being mad at you. Believe it or not apologizing helps way more than most people think because it shows your commitment to them and that they're willing to go the distance for them because you care. Although as we all know it doesn't fix everything because fixing something takes time and work. When you care about someone you want to be brutally honest because in the long run they'll be more happy that you told them the truth. That is especially important in relationships. Truthfulness. I always try my best to be truthful with my friends and when I'm not I often feel guilty. I feel really bad overall. Courage to do the right thing for your friends is also needed. Don't let them make stupid mistakes that they'll later regret. I'm glad I have friends like that. Friends that keep pushing me to do what I need to do so I don't regret it later. They support me even if they don't always agree with what I'm doing. They care about me enough to tell me when I simply need to shut the heck up. Which sometimes I need. A little bit of tough love comes with caring too. Being nice and kind but being serious when it gets down to bussines. All and all that pretty much sums caring up. But remeber this list is always being added to so figure out some things of your own to add to the list.

Rocky Relationships

Have you ever had a rocky relationship? Whether it be with a friend or another person. Either way you have come to a point in time where you want out. And that is that. But for some people it is just so hard to let go of what you have known and loved. You know that the longer you wait the harder it will be for you especially but you know that, that person is not worthy of you. I can relate considering that I have been through a couple of these kinds of relationships. It is unbeliveable how cruel and uncaring some people can be even if they were people you considered to be close friends. I learnd a lot about life one way or another through the experiences I have been through. Learning that some people don't think twice about using you and that even friends you trusted can do the most hurtfult things that brew a storm that you knew was coming. Which leads to really heated fights. Although sometimes these can result in the ending of a friendship. This isn't always a bad thing as I have often experiecned but learn that some people change after you show them what was wrong that kept them blind. For example one friend I knew from other things let me be part of their group. Which I thought was wonderful at the time becase I was in a world that was extremly lonely and had very few people to turn to. By the middle of the school year I was offically hanging out with them and loving it until one seemingly harmless action caused the biggest blowout I had ever seen in my short life. I took the side that ended up changing my life and letting me broaden my horizion. This girl helped me through a lot of things that none of my other friends had even thought twice about about caring about. She listened intently but talked as much as I did. She relates and confides in me. I love her to death for pulling down the barrier the other girls at put up at her own expense. I am still friends with two girls from that group and now the girl who started all this changed a lot in my eyes she's polite and just natrual with her friends being nice to anyone that who is nice to her in return. As many people have said we were all young and stupid back then no one mature enough to handle it in a civilized manor. When I think back to events such as these I am kind of embarrassed but except what I earned from it and indulge what I learned from it. I'll never forget how it felt to feel alone to feel as though all your friends that you trusted and loved betrayed you, your trust and your respect. I've felt that way once and not that long ago. I'm the kind of person who always trys to stay in control and don't often tell people when something is wrong because of fear. Fear of who knows what! (well I know of course). but fear of life repeating itself like it has so many times before. I don't like to fight but if that's what I need to do to fix things I'll do it. Usually though my friends know my boundarires and know when and how not to cross them. That's probaly what I admire most about my friends. I'm sorry to say but now I see that soon I don't know when or hiw but a recent history is quite doomed to repeat itself against many people's better judgement.

21 Quotes to Guide Me

This is a list of 21 quotes that mean the most to me and stand for who I am. They inspire me in my everyday life and in my everyday activites. I have a certain way I guide my life. Do I disapoint myself sometimes? Of course but I always promise to do better after I've disapointed myself. I always pick myself up after I fall. So here they are and I hope they brighten your life like they've brightened mine:
1. "We weren't sister's by birth but I knew from the start God put us together to be sisters at heart" -This is a quote I was told by one of my friends years ago and it's special to me because it reminds me of friendships I've lost and ones I've found.
2. "Friends that matter don't car and friends that care don't matter"- From the moment I heard this quote it's been one of my favorites, it says a lot to me. It basically means that friends that you care about shouldn't care about things on the outside and it they do they're not good friends
3. "One who does not think for themselves does not think at all"(Oscar Wilde)- You need to be able to think for yourself and make your own decisions regarding everything. You need to be your own person not anybody else's
4. "It's never too late to be who you might've been"(George Elliot)- Everybody says I wish I did this or I wish I did that but in truth you can it's never too late and taking the first step is all it take
5."Together forever never apart maybe in distance but never in heart"- Friends and Family alike never stray a mile in your heart they're just as close even if your a contient away. Our heart is where we keep everything near and dear, close so it's never faraway
6."Life's truest happiness comes from the friendships we make along the way"- My friends are the people in my life that make me happy that let me laugh and have a great time. They make me the person I am, they make me fight for what I overally stand for in my everyday life.
7. "Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets"(Arthur Miller)-We can never redo life when time passes it's over and unfortunately you never get it back. We keep these moments close to us that way we can learn from them and hope that we come out even better than before.
8. "Life is like a coin. You can spend it anyway you wish, but you can only spend it once"(Lillian Pickson)- One time is all you have you need to live it to be the best and the most successful. You're in control of your life and you should never forget that.
9. "Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony"(Mahatama Gandhi)- Everybody has different interpretations of happiness and this is probaly closet to mine. I think everything needs to be connected one way or another.
10."Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing it was here first"(Mark Twain)- You can't expect anything out of life because it's your job to make something out of life not sit around and wait which could eventally make you become a hobo
11. "Who bravely dares must somtimes risk a fall"(Tobias George Smollett)- I've met plenty of confident people, people who are willing to conquer the world if that's what needs to be done but unfortunately everyone has to fall once in a while you can't win every fight.
12." Imagination is more important that knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world"(Albert Einstein)- Beinf book-smart is great don't get me wrong but how can you get anywhere in the world if you can't dream and dream big. I set high standards and I have high hopes and dreams, that doesn't come from book-smarts it comes from my wild imagination
13. "Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go"(T.S. Elliot)- Most little kids I know like to push their limits and this technique is actually pretty smart because you can't know how far you can go if you've never tested your limits.
14. "Wisdom is knowing what to do next, skill is knowing how to do it and virtue is doing it"(David Starr Jordan)- Not everybody knows how to act in all situations but wisdom, skill and virtue help a lot. They often guide you more than you know in your daily decisions.
15. "First say to yourself what you would be and then do what you have to do"(Epictetus)- Knowing what you need to do is the first step to achieveing any goal. The second step is doing it.
16. "We can't help everyone, but everyone can help someone"(Loretta Scott)- I've met a lot of people who do the little things that can help towards the greater picture. What you do today can help change tomorrow.
17. "Expecting life to treat you well because your a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegatarian"(Shari R. Barr)- You can never expect things out of life because then you'll often turn up empty handed. I learned my lesson a long time ago when my well turned up dry.
18. "One life is all we have and we live it as we believe in living it. But to sacrifice what you are and to live without belief that is a fate more terrible than dying"(Joan of Arc)-People openly ruin their lives everyday with no attempt to fix it. We must hold hope and belief in order to thrive in life.
19. "If you love something let it go. If it comes back it's yours. If it doesn't it never really was in the first place" - You know when someone loves you they would do anything for you even let you go if that's what it would take.
20. "Love doesn't make the world fo round. Love is what makes the ride worth while"(Franklin P. Jones)-Your in charge of your life you make the globe spin but things like love and adoration make your life more enjoyable
21. "The really happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery when on a detour"- If you can make the best out of the worst situation you truly know how to live and be happy.
Those are all 21 of them! They make me think harder about the meaning of life and help push me to keep going I really hope they help you people reading too!

Finding Peace

The place or feeling we all know as peace can sometimes be hard to find. The way I see peace is your inner sense of peace and happiness, where the world's worries simply melt away. Peace defiently doesn't come easy it takes time to find and achieve like any worth while thing.Without peace and happiness my life would fall apart. I personally need that sense of secruity and the quiet serene place used for thinking. Thinking about lifes worries can actually take you farther than you think. You can take the much needed time to look at it from many different angles. I find this helps me apporoach situations better by having more in take on them. This also helps me to be a better person because I have more time to get to know myself and know who I am. Many people automatically assume my life has been easy but in reality it hasn't. I've been uprooted so many times that my wide variety of friends stretchs me in many different directions. But unlike some people I know which direction to go in different times. Because for me every direction allows me to have yet another experience. To me thats the only real way you learn from life experiences. I haven't had as much experience as some people but that doesn't mean my experience isn't helpful or worth testing out. I've seen so many things over th course of my life and I think I deserce just a little credit for everything I do. I put up with everything you could ever imagine and more. The only way I can possibly balance it all is through my thoughts. I go head and assess each situation often spacing out a lot because I need that extra focus to get more depth on my thoughts. I find peace by being prepared and know how I feel about everything. I do wish I had more time for meditation because surprisingly it really does help. It helps clear your mind to make room for thoughts and solutions. But my mind unfortunately is instead running wild with confusion which probaly doesn't surprise you. All my friends always joke I'm confused half the time and other half nobody can understand what I'm saying. Which is true but really hiliraous. Make more time for things that can ultimately help you out greatly in the long run because you never know what life might throw at you.

My Life Story

From what I know outside of my house I was a quiet child nobody really heard much out of me except my best friend Amanda. She was always there she knew me for who I was even back then. I was crushed when I had to leave her. I lost touch with her and was so upset because no one I met could compare to her except one person She was everything to me my sister my best friend my mentor and the person I looked up to. I was crushed when I was taken away (metaphorically) from her. I had other friends I could trust but I never thought I would ever get over it. But truthfully today looking back I owe her a lot because I wouldn't be half the person I am today without her. I moved on slowly coming about a new best friend she isn't half the person my old was but she's special to me for different reasons. She makes me laugh, she teases me (although sometimes I don't always like it), she makes me take risks I wouldn't normally take. We balance each other out she's the free bird and I'm the caged one. She can be quite moody sometimes but when she's happy she brighten everyday. I made lots of different friends especially in middle school because I was forced to work outside of my comfort zone warming up to people I normally wouldn't have. And that's how I met my other best friend. Truthfully she's a werido and can get on my nerves sometimes like any friend. But even when we don't talk for what feels like weeks we can still pick everything up like we talk all the time when we do see each other. She's one of the only people that always stands by me even when I take the chance of being wrong. I am really independent but I would be nothing without my friends. My friends helped me become who I am today. The spunky, wild,out of control, werid, independent, strong,stubborn, and fiesty person I am today. All in all thanks to all my friends new and old that are reading this. I owe more than I can ever repay you.

Falling Apart

I know many of you may not see it but on the inside I'm falling apart bit by bit. I'm trying so hard but through my experiences over the school year I'm becoming a different person a stronger one a more determined one. A person who as of now doesn't let anything go until it's resolved. I now try to open up as much as possible pointing out things that really don't seem right to me. I'm at the point where I must choose my road again. I'm at that cross road again. When you finally think you've run out of them there comes another one. I know what I want and the person I want to be but that's not enough to get my feet going in the right direction. Because believe it or not it's not who you want to be it's your destined to be. You have to discover a little bit of your destiny each time you reach a cross road and then you can continue on the path you choose. I finally after what felt like forever got going on my next path. It's beautiful and magnificent but just like any other great place it does experience it's storms. You can't have everything but sadly I learned that the hard way. I was always one step above where I was supposed to be and that hurt me when someone abruntly knocked me down. I fell and got bruised a little bit but like any wounds they healed and I kept on climbing until I was there again but this time I had someone who stood by me making me the stronger person and instead falling again I stood my ground. My ambitions had been lowered but my dreams and my hope hadn't been crushed. My dreams are my life they guide me in everyday decisions. I tend to think big so for me the sky's the limit. I don't like being held back I like to be let loose and set free. But in my enviornment that's hard when I can just see those things ahead but can't reach them. There so close but yet so far away. I've wished a million things like escaping my world to go to the other one where I sometimes feel that I belong. I believe in everything magical I have no limits. I just wish we could all live in peace and learn from the animals around us they are always so nice and kind they share there world with us not always willingly but know their limits. They set an example for all of human kind because they could teach us some many life lessons but unfortunately most of use don't stop long enough to learn. My life has been put back to together again to extent. I feel as though some of my beliefs are shattered over and over again each day. It hurts a lot because I see the truth of everything I hope with all my heart and stay true to my idea of my faith even when so many of my generation don't. I have wild thoughts and a complicated way of thinking that even I don't get sometimes.

Passion: Whats yours??

My passion is simply Music it's my life. I love to sing and listen to it. I love to play it on my neglected flute. But sometimes I loose focus and get so off track that nothing can help me but Music. Music always calms me down. Without it I would always be bouncing off the walls. It's my life I eat sleep and breathe it. I hate being told my music is bad or crappy or that I should listen to something more like yours. It's ridicoulous because everybody has a right to listen to whatever makes them happy and nobody can tell me I can't like this artist or that artist. That's jus plain wrong. I can listen to ANY artist or song I want to you it's my i-pod not yours so let it go! Some people don't like certain genres and when they say that it's fine with me but don't take it to the point where you might be saying 'oh your whole i-pod is country or Taylor swift' You may not realize it but that hurts I may have an odd mix of music but that's not a reason to state very inaccurate things or insult someone else's chocie in music! Deal with it if they're putting that music on your ipod fine but learn when to leave well enough alone. Because if all I want to listen to is Taylor Swift it's my problem not yours! And I don't see it as a problem considering Taylor Swift is one of my favorite artists just because you don't like her doesn't mean you have to take it out on me. Music is unique to every indiviual so before telling someone something about their music stop and think 'Could this maybe be offensive or hurtful?